When something you love is taken away...

its been so long since i have blogged, and no-one stops by anyways so i can be sure what i write will make no difference anywys...

it has been quite an interesting year so far. i have a cool job-which i thought i would never be doing- i have some parts of me back that i thought i would never see again. my Jadey is going up and is really starting to shine, her confidence is going everyday and she seems to be happy with life. and i suppose the biggest thing that has happened to me i have experienced some major loss in my life.. My dogs were taken away from my house. yes they did something wrong and i can't change that but it still hurts when they have been a part of your life for soo long and everything that you have thought about has put the dogs first, like where to live and yard size putting how much it will cost me last. well i have paid the ultimate price now i had to surrender them on the 17th of April, this was one of the hardest things i have done. i am getting all teary thinking about them.

I suppose i should explain on the random chance that someone stops by and happen to read this blog...

My dogs Brutis and Carrie broke out of the yard on Saturday morning and attacked another dog whilst it was been walked past on a lead..... the dog died at the vets after having extentive work done on it. the cops turned up to take action and took Brutis to the police station and carrie ran home, they both were picked up and taken to the animal shelter-- i was at my bros for the weekend and had no idea this had happened, i had arranged home care for the dogs and they had never broken out of the yard before, so i was not to know that this would happen. they were declared dangerous and an order was issued to me that they were to be put down... i could have got them back but i was required to be sure that they would never do it again... how could  be so sure i never thought they would get out the first time let alone any other times after. Plus all the council fines pending.. fuck this all is making me fell sick. i miss there happy wagging tails at the door when i get home from work, i miss playing tag with them, i miss there presence, protection and companionship.  i have lost two of my 'kids' and it has taken a few days to set in...